a THREESOME date! ♥

A thursday morning with my friends @Greenbelt :)

We had a lunch date at Marciano's in Greenbelt 3. The food was okay and a bit expensive. Didn't like the food much though cause it was kind of boring for me and a little too salty, but I love the ambiance.

I actually really think that it's for the lovers. It has a nice and sweet feeling inside.

THE FOOD

This lasagna I like this, love the beefy inside.

The meaty lovers pizza

and ofcourse the ferrero chocolate cake for dessert :)

me and plini :)

My two date - kelvin and Pauline! x

and then we went frolicking around Greenbelt, and took some random pictures.

and then later that day we decided to have dinner @Megamall :)

YABU - the first ever yabu here in the Philippines. Im not even kidding, the food here is divine! Very affordable and yet really yummy.. will definitely visit here again soon.

THE YUMMY FOODIES!
But first, you have to wipe your hands using this cold wet towelletes.lol

The ambiance

REALIZATIONS.
I've been going out a lot lately with my friends, mostly with pauline. and when I say a lot, I really mean it. I love going out, trying out new food and stuff. And it seems to me that being alone and single has been giving me a lot of time for myself, to discover what I want and what I really like doing and just basically being my own company. I don't miss being in a relationship, atleast Im getting better and not spending most of my time lying and remembering what could have been, what could I've done wrong that causes all these pain and heartache. Why I am so alone and bitter. Im so done with the "moving-on phase" for the most part of my life. I now accepted that things didn't really work out between two people no matter how badly they loved each other. That no matter how long you have been together, there will come a time that you'll eventually grow apart. The sudden felt for space and the lost of love that the two of you just can't seem to understand how and when it all started. Neither of you saw it coming, it just happened. Its inevitable. A force of complete fate and LIFE as usual. Folding infront of you and yet you can't do anything to stop it. You just sit there and watch everything to fall apart. But then, at the end of the day there's still the hope for that day to come, the day to maybe reconcile, to give it a chance again, to realize how badly you needed each other. or worse none of this was ever realized. So it's  just probably right to move-on with your own lives without each other. It seems very painful to hear that you have to live alone now without each other, that very person who gives you the reason for existence is now.. gone.

 But what we never realize is what a privilege it is to be given a chance to live, to start again from scratch, to make yourself look better, to make you feel definitely good about yourself, to love yourself without depending on someone's love. It's priceless. It's a new start. it's fresh and new, it's a chance for you to get everything straight. And it's awesome. Being too independent can make you feel stronger and dominant. Finally, I've found a balance life. I don't need anyone at the moment. Although I've been dating a lot lately, but the more I meet boys the more I would realize how I want to be single. How I want my own space and time. I can't see myself with someone anymore. Although, there's this guy that I really like. I really really do. But it seems to me that he's not ready for a relationship too, or maybe he doesn't see me as a girlfriend material. But whatever it may be, were not talking anymore now. I just decided to stay away from him. And it kills me everytime I see him online and I just can't seem to make myself start the conversation. I like him so much that it scares me. Because Im coward. I don't wanna be inlove. Not just yet, but he's perfect for me. I like him. I really really do that it hurts everytime, I just wish he knew.

But the thing is, I know myself more now. Im not ready. and I don't wanna make that move only to get hurt in the end. Im too tired of it. Done with the boys for the most part. It's so strange though knowing I have lived my life this far wherein I won't be needing anyone anymore for a long time, probably will be for the longest time. But don't get me wrong, I love dating. I love boys, I think they're cute and sweet and freaking adorable. They treat you food, gives you presents, throw surprises. But the thing is, I don't see them as a potential boyfriend anymore. More of a brother or a friend. I know it's weird and I myself is getting scared of being alone, I might become too comfortable and contented being alone that I fear I might be forever.

But what matters most is that, Im happy. and I wanna take this time to enjoy what I love doing, to make plans on my own, eat alone, go out with friends without having to worry about anything. and I probably want to stay like this for a long while. I love it here and I know Im safer this way.

 xxx