a THREESOME date! ♥

A thursday morning with my friends @Greenbelt :)

We had a lunch date at Marciano's in Greenbelt 3. The food was okay and a bit expensive. Didn't like the food much though cause it was kind of boring for me and a little too salty, but I love the ambiance.

I actually really think that it's for the lovers. It has a nice and sweet feeling inside.

THE FOOD

This lasagna I like this, love the beefy inside.

The meaty lovers pizza

and ofcourse the ferrero chocolate cake for dessert :)

me and plini :)

My two date - kelvin and Pauline! x

and then we went frolicking around Greenbelt, and took some random pictures.

and then later that day we decided to have dinner @Megamall :)

YABU - the first ever yabu here in the Philippines. Im not even kidding, the food here is divine! Very affordable and yet really yummy.. will definitely visit here again soon.

THE YUMMY FOODIES!
But first, you have to wipe your hands using this cold wet towelletes.lol

The ambiance

REALIZATIONS.
I've been going out a lot lately with my friends, mostly with pauline. and when I say a lot, I really mean it. I love going out, trying out new food and stuff. And it seems to me that being alone and single has been giving me a lot of time for myself, to discover what I want and what I really like doing and just basically being my own company. I don't miss being in a relationship, atleast Im getting better and not spending most of my time lying and remembering what could have been, what could I've done wrong that causes all these pain and heartache. Why I am so alone and bitter. Im so done with the "moving-on phase" for the most part of my life. I now accepted that things didn't really work out between two people no matter how badly they loved each other. That no matter how long you have been together, there will come a time that you'll eventually grow apart. The sudden felt for space and the lost of love that the two of you just can't seem to understand how and when it all started. Neither of you saw it coming, it just happened. Its inevitable. A force of complete fate and LIFE as usual. Folding infront of you and yet you can't do anything to stop it. You just sit there and watch everything to fall apart. But then, at the end of the day there's still the hope for that day to come, the day to maybe reconcile, to give it a chance again, to realize how badly you needed each other. or worse none of this was ever realized. So it's  just probably right to move-on with your own lives without each other. It seems very painful to hear that you have to live alone now without each other, that very person who gives you the reason for existence is now.. gone.

 But what we never realize is what a privilege it is to be given a chance to live, to start again from scratch, to make yourself look better, to make you feel definitely good about yourself, to love yourself without depending on someone's love. It's priceless. It's a new start. it's fresh and new, it's a chance for you to get everything straight. And it's awesome. Being too independent can make you feel stronger and dominant. Finally, I've found a balance life. I don't need anyone at the moment. Although I've been dating a lot lately, but the more I meet boys the more I would realize how I want to be single. How I want my own space and time. I can't see myself with someone anymore. Although, there's this guy that I really like. I really really do. But it seems to me that he's not ready for a relationship too, or maybe he doesn't see me as a girlfriend material. But whatever it may be, were not talking anymore now. I just decided to stay away from him. And it kills me everytime I see him online and I just can't seem to make myself start the conversation. I like him so much that it scares me. Because Im coward. I don't wanna be inlove. Not just yet, but he's perfect for me. I like him. I really really do that it hurts everytime, I just wish he knew.

But the thing is, I know myself more now. Im not ready. and I don't wanna make that move only to get hurt in the end. Im too tired of it. Done with the boys for the most part. It's so strange though knowing I have lived my life this far wherein I won't be needing anyone anymore for a long time, probably will be for the longest time. But don't get me wrong, I love dating. I love boys, I think they're cute and sweet and freaking adorable. They treat you food, gives you presents, throw surprises. But the thing is, I don't see them as a potential boyfriend anymore. More of a brother or a friend. I know it's weird and I myself is getting scared of being alone, I might become too comfortable and contented being alone that I fear I might be forever.

But what matters most is that, Im happy. and I wanna take this time to enjoy what I love doing, to make plans on my own, eat alone, go out with friends without having to worry about anything. and I probably want to stay like this for a long while. I love it here and I know Im safer this way.

 xxx

Food lately... according to my blackberry :)

jwent out with my friend last night and ate at CYMA restaurant for dinner. and all I can say is WOW. I've been here twice before and they never fail to amaze me. I love it here and the food is super comforting.

we had this pita with blue cheese for appetizer and I love it. Love the blue cheese. can't get enough of them. :)

The lamb Gyro. I love the chicken more though.. but nonetheless its yummy!

Chicken souvlaki - its like a kebab on stick and you'll roll it in pita and eat it.

such an interesting food. :)

And just last 2 weeks ago I think, we tried eating here @Mango Tree Bistro. It has a nice cozy ambiance that you could really relax while eating. Kind of pricey but it's heaven and its super sulit or getting more than what you pay for :) lol

The most delicious bagoong rice I've ever tasted in my whole entire life! Im not even kidding. Im hands down to this one.

The chicken curry with green leaves. Not so fan. Maybe because the coconut taste was too strong that its over powering the entire food.

Pink Salmon salad. I love this one!

and my super favorite!!!!! this chicken is the best.. I tell ya :)

So thats it for now. Im thinking of changing my blog into food blog now. haha cause it seems like I've been blogging about foodies lately. But whatever. I just really love food. Tom I'll be in GREENBELT with friends and then shangrila and megamall, and guess what? there'll be a lot of eating again. haha

OH YEAH, the french macaroons. so it'll be complete! x

P.S
I kinda need some change.. I badly want to dye my hair like this..

its a strawberry blonde. But since I study in a very religious school, (St. Paul University QC) were not really allowed to dye our hair, so I kinda need to wait until summer. Summer is too long.

SUCKS for me I know..











and ofcourse the hair of Miley too. I've been wanting to have curly hair like hers.. so gorgeous right?
I need longer hair though :) We'll see. But I'd definitely dye my hair no matter what.
 

Cerealicious on a saturday morning :)

We have decided to take a lunch in Katipunan. and This is how it all started.

Me and my friend pauline went to Cerealicious earlier cause we just grew tired of all the foodies near our school so we went somewhere further. Which is 3 train stations away from our school I think. lol Were supposed to go to makati though but we thought we have a recording thing to do so we need to get back in school @ exactly 2pm.. so yeah..

Cerealicious! Never thought they offer such great food in a very cheap price! :)

I had this really good spaghetti meatballs :) I love pesto but its not available so I said okay, I'll take it. Not bad though.

My new favorite!! I ordered the best seller and they call it "Charlie and the chocolate factory". It has banana, milo cereal, and chocnut. Its really yummy!

Yummy goodness!

It comes with many delicious falavahhhhh!!!

Pauline had this Carbonara, it looks boring but its yummy.. and I don't really know why she likes white sauce instead of red. Oh welps. anyway..

ofcourse, US. Me and plini :)

just ME. Being obviously vain and such a guilty cam whore.

P.S
us @the school radio/recording room. Just being silly and just being complete retard. haha
just for fun so don't hate. we did those obnoxious steps purposely.
We look like a wet noodle though. hahaha :))

As much as we want to be Lady gaga and Beyonce..
It feels like we just mocked Barney and Friends with this dance. FAIL :)))

Plini and tinnie :)

Date with my best girlfriend pauline. Just hit the mall and had a lot of fun. lol

we ate at Dulcinea, I don't know if I like the lasagna though.

me being super vain, never thought I have a lot of yellow stuff. haha

forever21

We got addicted to this! hahaha

A complicated thing.


I just gotta share this,

This crush.... of mine.

Such a lame start I know, cause here I am, a 21 yr old girl talking about her crush.
Now, that just sound so highschool I know.. But whatever. Im at the school library trying to concentrate on the things I should have done or I should do, or should I? really. I don't know... its hard.

This guy.. I've known him for quite sometime now 4 years maybe? we were just text mates at that time. We'll not really text mates, but we've known each other through texts by common friends. If you know what I mean. We barely talk, we just used to say hi and hellos whenever one of us are online. I mean, we have planned for meet-ups before ofcourse but it never happened. Probably because there's no chance. I was dating someone at that time, so for 2 years I didn't make myself available for meet-ups. He on the other hand, had his on and off girlfriend for 5 years and had girlfriends once in awhile every time they part ways, atleast that's how I see it. So basically, maybe a part of me never really liked him. I think he's cute and all that, goes to an Int'l school somewhere in taguig. Owns suv cars. Handles family business since he was young. He's not that tall though. But he's fine. I like his eyes. But we never really get to know each other.. we were just, that. Nothing. Just someone to each other, not even someone maybe.

Until..... just last month we decided to meet up. Ha! Finally. But he invited me a lot of times before that, but I would always say NO or maybe next time. But something came up and I said why not. So there you go. We went out. got a burger, went to eastwood and ate donuts and stuff. He would hold my hand while driving, walking.. but I would always take it off, because I don't know. I always had this awkwardness with guys, I don't feel comfortable. So yeah, it was a simple date, deep inside of me I thought maybe we're not really meant to be lovers. I mean all the while I was thinking how I don't see myself with this guy. It feels weird, we don't have anything in common, he smokes.. which is ridiculous! (I hate smokers btw) I told him he should stop but he said he's not really into smoking he just smokes once in awhile. but still.. he's a smoker, and that would be like kissing an ashtray for me. So NO. But the date went on smoothly, until we were talking while he was driving and I asked him something about how he would surprise a girl, if he likes surprises.. or how he would do it.. surprises you know.. because I like it with boys. But then, he told me why should I tell you? maybe it's gunna be you... then UNINTENTIONALLY, I must've said something bad like "just maybe, you never know", and he must have taken it the wrong way... then he said. It's like I'm pushing him away for the whole day and he said that if I don't like him that would be fine and yada yada.. I kept on explaining how I didn't mean it that way, but but.. sighhh* so he just kept quiet. and that was it. He drove me home and we said our goodbyes and he kissed me on the cheeks.. and to the final bomb I jokingly said, why do you have to kiss me with lips? I was expecting a cheek to cheek kiss then I laugh but he got offended, I saw it in his face. and I was mortified myself!! why do I have to be so complicated?? maybe because I have this fear about boys.. afraid of getting hurt and whatnot. So I think it was really my fault. We were the same after that date though, he would text me and stuff but he never really ask me out again after that, until just last tuesday but I cancelled it again cause of my sch sched and now he's leaving somewhere in province with friends and I was left here thinking... I really like this guy. It was me who pushed him away, pushing people away from my life. Because of this fear of getting hurt. Of committing into something that will never work out anyway.

See, Im this negative bitch. What should I do now? I don't even know if he knows that I like him, I don't think he got the idea though. Cause I was never showing him. Though I really want him to know that I do - without even saying it. Cause I don't wanna sound so desperately needy and clingy... and like an aggressive needy. y'know. Eww, no plan of doing that to anyone. except Ryan Gosling maybe, but thats another story.lol

ugh!! I don't like it. And Im scared that my flirting skills maybe a little off at the moment. since I've been single for quite sometime now. I might mislead him or something and would turn out to be a total lame ass trying to get his attention. But srsly,  he's driving me like cray-cray. and I hate this feeling!! It's really complicated.. and probably turning into a more complicated thing called, love? NO. Im not inlove. I just like him.. thats it.

I like him and I've never liked anyone like this for a long time now.
and It's hard. and its scary... I hate to feel this way.

So what should I do? I need some advice :(